Newness
I figured Im over due to update this damn thing. I have nothing better to do today. I didn't really feel like going to the mall seeing as I have been here everyday this week. More so the mall seems to be ever so depressing. I may be on of the most well known people there...but whenever I am there I feel like shit that has been washed up on shore and forgotten. I don't really know why. On top of it the mall is just a drama packed epicenter for depressing happenings lately. I mean, I have reasons for being depressed at times when I go there...but, the whole...picking sides over most of the bullshit inside peoples various inner circles...we might as well be having gang wars. My reason for not having a good time there is...just when I look around I see the couples...and the smiles and its like getting stabbed in the heart, I wish that could be me once, with someone I wanted to be with. It sucks. It also tares my mind apart at the seems. But, that is the story of my life. Blah...Well I will leave it at that. Its getting me down just to try to write about it. To all who read this. I have to pee.