can't sleep.
i can't sleep,
so i figured where else to put my unsettled thoughts than this stupid journal.
this is the most awkward phase of my life,
i'm neither here nor there,
not to mention that for the first time in a long time i'm completely alone.
all my good friends have their lives all planned out,
and here i am just beginning to think of mine.
it's odd for me to think 6 months from now i'll actuially be on my own,
functioning as a normal human being.
no home schooling,
no doctors appointments.
nothing.
it's kind of scary.
for the past two years that's basically been my life.
more and more recently i fear failure.
if i'm on my own i'll have no one to blame but myself.
and i've never "failed" at anything before.
i hope i'm thing strong on my own.