i wish:
things didn't end up this way,
and that those bad events didn't happen.
i really wish we could be us.
maybe i'm fixated on things being a certin way,
but i feel like i really diserved it,
i hate having to proove myself to you,
especially because the weight falls on my back and not theirs.
maybe i didn't do the right thing,
but i wasn't all wrong.
i hate sitting, waiting, wishing for you.
making myself feel stupid,
worring im wasting my time.
maybe you'll never see the light,
maybe things will never grow or the bad wont fade.
maybe this will turn out to be another failure.
.. but that glimpse that i caught of 'us',
that trivial period of time,
it was soo good,
good enough for me to sit, wait, and wish
that maybe we can be that again.