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I have been in a off and on bad mood lately. I feel like I am pushing my friends away.
I was fine in art
I was fine in civics
Then I had math....and I am always in a bad mood in math(just ask jami or cristina). Its not because its math, I don't really know why I am in a bad mood during that class. Maybe because jami and cristina always talk to zack and zack always talks to jami and cristina...and no one talks to me. jami will say stuff to me and cristina will too acosionally, but we never have actualle conversations. I never have conversations with people. NEVER. Atleast not in school anyway. I can talk to people online, and they talk to me, but in school....people never do.
After math I had spanish, wich was broing, but I wasn't in a bad mood or anything, just in a bored one.
Then there was lunch...The worste part of the day. I sit with Jazz, Robyn, Kim, danny, and sometimes Erich will sit there. I am always left out of everything and they barely ever talk to me...it's like they dont care about me and my thoughts and they treat me like im stupid and i will do anything they want me to..and if i ever look sad or something they never say brenton whats wrong..well they do once and of courseand i say i really dont want to talk about but everyone should no that when i say i dont want to talk or im fine that I do want to talk and I am NOT fine. ...so they just push me to the end table and ....practilly don't talk to me. And today it was erichs birthday and kim said her birthday is in some number of days and i said mines in 7 and shes like we dont care and she turns around and talks to robyn. so that got me upset for the rest of lunch and most of science(next period) and it made me think...I guess people dont care about me..and maybe kim was jsut joking but she didnt seem like it cos when ppl joke around they usually smile or say jk or talk to you but she justy turned right around and talked to robyn. bitch. So..I was in a bad mood in science. Later in science kim turns around and tells me to give a note to erich. She gives me the note. I dont give it to him thought. I throw it on the ground. And a little while later she is like, did you pass the note down and i gave her and evil glare and shook my head no and she was like whats wrong and i just didnt say anything..but the day got better after I went to the Bathroom cos on my way back from the BR kendra was sitting near the stairs going to the science room and actually called me over to talk to me..it made me feel better cos someone actually wanted to talk to mee...most of my friends will just look up and say hi and thats it
So my rest of the day was better. and of course rebekah made me luagh, lol
My birthdays in 7 days
If anyone cares
Which some people hopefully do
I hope