not any more.
What am I here for? It's 4:30am and I have accomplished NOTHING..I'm definiltey up because I needed to do work...did I do it? NO...why am I wasting my money here? I need to stop wasting it. That could mean alot of things so we will just see what that brings. I'll still be here for anything, but I need to stop just randomly talking to people...that's what I do and enjoy, but there comes a point where you have to know when to stop...I guess I need to stop. Feel free to email, call, mail, whatever...I'm a big screw up and need help sometimes. all i seem to be good for right now is talking to people and wasting time. i gotta stop dicking around and start getting stuff done:-/ This is uber depressing. Might have something to say later, but right now im passing out in front of the computer...i think its 445am now...
Please, someone just love me..Love me enough to know what the heck is wrong with my brain. im bored of this crap. so much love, but no musical expression. It's like people don't feel it...they just play the notes on a page, especially in the baccanale...or however you spell it...and thats what typing with your eyes closed gets you...randomly marching band comments in the middle of something serious...I want help, but I...now its really bad. for anyone i asked about this, i didnt take the caffeine pills tonight...was going to wait till i went to practice piano for class tomorrow, but I just kinda pissed away my time to even do that little tonight...so i didnt take them. Hope you all are having a good time wherever you all ended up...heheh, i dont know if anyone other than whitney and jennie even have my on their friends lists...whitney and jennie area pparently the only ones on my list omg, stilll talking.
Love you,
goodbye for now
Please, someone just love me..Love me enough to know what the heck is wrong with my brain. im bored of this crap. so much love, but no musical expression. It's like people don't feel it...they just play the notes on a page, especially in the baccanale...or however you spell it...and thats what typing with your eyes closed gets you...randomly marching band comments in the middle of something serious...I want help, but I...now its really bad. for anyone i asked about this, i didnt take the caffeine pills tonight...was going to wait till i went to practice piano for class tomorrow, but I just kinda pissed away my time to even do that little tonight...so i didnt take them. Hope you all are having a good time wherever you all ended up...heheh, i dont know if anyone other than whitney and jennie even have my on their friends lists...whitney and jennie area pparently the only ones on my list omg, stilll talking.
Love you,
goodbye for now