Life Update #4582
Last week was... FULL of personal turmoil and that it always exhausting. Now im all off kilter and im trying to get back on the tracks. Its true what the good book says though: Although last week was crushing, I felt closer to God than i have in a long time. Praise for that.
I caused a bit of an uproar in church this past Sunday, and now im scared that again, people have the wrong impression of me, when my intentions were pure. I dont know where to go from here.
Dan and I are taking new steps together with God and I am so thankful and so happy to be with him. Some things just feel right.
Im taking up "hooping." Its really fun and it makes me feel carefree... even though im really not that way at all secretly inside. Im purging my itunes library. Im sick of having so much music that i dont even know where to LOOK for the music i want to hear. I have too much. I am admitting it here in this public arena. I am addicted to music. music and impulse buying. That brings me to my next point:
I'm not catholic. I dont dig catholicism. I do practice my own version of lent though. Yup. MY version. I believe that a little sacrifice for the right reasons... namely Jesus... is a good idea. This year I'm giving up impulse buying. Good-bye shopping sanity. Hello refuge in the word. Maybe i will make it till Easter. I am worried though. I already messed up today... sort of.
Jobs are boring. Life is SO much more important to me than office work and lifeguarding all day long. My mind is growing numb. Im REALLY looking forward to a summer of different-ness.
I miss you. yeah. you. Ive been lost in my own little world for a while now. Im looking for some refreshment. Something new. Not that im not happy. i am. just a bit numb. maybe thats a result of last week. i dont know. whatev.