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busy. just like everyone else.
its strange. i have found myself closing up around people about what is going on with me. its like what is happening is to emotional for me to bring it all out and share it. id rather just say, "everything is going fine, its all going well" rather than say "well its not all fine." can you relate to that? it feel like a big old pile that keeps getting bigger rather than working on it. i dont really know how to explain it any better than that. i know that if i took the time to tell my mom, she might understand to some extent and she would pray with me... which is what i need. its just almost an unsurmountable task to start the conversation. blah. im annoyed right now. then again... i know that life is precious and that i am blessed beyond my own ability to measure it. i really have no reason to complain. i dont.
its strange. i have found myself closing up around people about what is going on with me. its like what is happening is to emotional for me to bring it all out and share it. id rather just say, "everything is going fine, its all going well" rather than say "well its not all fine." can you relate to that? it feel like a big old pile that keeps getting bigger rather than working on it. i dont really know how to explain it any better than that. i know that if i took the time to tell my mom, she might understand to some extent and she would pray with me... which is what i need. its just almost an unsurmountable task to start the conversation. blah. im annoyed right now. then again... i know that life is precious and that i am blessed beyond my own ability to measure it. i really have no reason to complain. i dont.