can't be me
i havnt written in so long for one reason...
it stopped being for me.. it became something i did to get a responce and i don't need that... all that does s hurt...
this cannot be be a place for me to bitch and moan about how bad my life is... because i have learned that no one gives a shit...
most people just care about themselves and only themselves.... and if something dosnt work for them then they get rid of it...
i guess that until i start going against who i am i will always feel alone... because all the people i know do themselves before anyone else...
i sit here and wonder if i die right now... will anyone care...
and right now.. i cant say give an answer of yes to that question.
i am no longer going to do things for other people who don't deserve it, and if that means that i have to be an ass hole.. than that s going to be me...
because i find that i get taken advantage to often and im not willing to do things for pople who dont give a rats ass about me...
today is the 8th anniversary of Evan's death and i dont think that i have any friends that have been there for me...
in fact i think the only thing that anyone i care about said to me is that i am a bad person and they are sick of me...
and that is proby why i'm done....
i can't do it anyore... because all its going to do is kill me...
so fuck it...
fuck everyone that has ever lied to me...
fuck everyone that is fake...
and finally fuck everyone who treats me with absolutly no respect... because i dont deserve it...
i walk alone today... physically....
but for the past 2 years i have walked alone... in reality...
so unless you can get over yourselves dont even bother talking to me... because you are worse than the people who dont pretend...
i'm done....
pierce
it stopped being for me.. it became something i did to get a responce and i don't need that... all that does s hurt...
this cannot be be a place for me to bitch and moan about how bad my life is... because i have learned that no one gives a shit...
most people just care about themselves and only themselves.... and if something dosnt work for them then they get rid of it...
i guess that until i start going against who i am i will always feel alone... because all the people i know do themselves before anyone else...
i sit here and wonder if i die right now... will anyone care...
and right now.. i cant say give an answer of yes to that question.
i am no longer going to do things for other people who don't deserve it, and if that means that i have to be an ass hole.. than that s going to be me...
because i find that i get taken advantage to often and im not willing to do things for pople who dont give a rats ass about me...
today is the 8th anniversary of Evan's death and i dont think that i have any friends that have been there for me...
in fact i think the only thing that anyone i care about said to me is that i am a bad person and they are sick of me...
and that is proby why i'm done....
i can't do it anyore... because all its going to do is kill me...
so fuck it...
fuck everyone that has ever lied to me...
fuck everyone that is fake...
and finally fuck everyone who treats me with absolutly no respect... because i dont deserve it...
i walk alone today... physically....
but for the past 2 years i have walked alone... in reality...
so unless you can get over yourselves dont even bother talking to me... because you are worse than the people who dont pretend...
i'm done....
pierce