i won't forget you my friend.
I nearly had a breakdown this morning. I almost cried in the locker room after practice. I don't understand myself, it really wasn't that big of a deal. But Cathy like tries to play it off like we could possibly get to lunch before it closes if we get out with fifteen minutes to spare. But it takes at least 20 minutes rushing to get over to dinner after practice ends, and that's without any distractions. I had to work too and I don't have a car, so what am I suppose to eat for lunch? Granola bars? I'm already anemic as it is, I need more than that. And then she asked us if we ate breakfast, like we can only eat lunch OR breakfast a day. I'm fucking starving 24 hours a day and burning 2000 calories a practice, which doesn't include whatever happens at dryland. I just want to eat food. And it doesn't help that fucking Sodexho won't let us take fruit or yogurt or "breakfast items at lunch" without paying for it... what's my fucking meal plan for then? I donl't even get why I should be complaining about this, let alone crying my eyes out over it...
Good news is I actually swam well last night. I got the B cut for the 1000 free with a 12:30 and change which was also my personal best. I only need to drop 5 more seconds to get the A cut in the 1000 / mile. I got my best time in the 500 for the season with a 6:11 and change. I only need to drop 11 seconds to get the A cut for that. My 100 fly wasn't bad, it was my best time from sophomore year, which was the last time I swam it. I'm doing the 400 IM tomorrow, hopefully that will be an A cut and I'll have 4 things to swim at New Englands. Distance girls took 1,2,3 sweep in the 500 and 1000, and we beat WPI by 5 points.
Today marks the 11 month anniversary of Shannon's death, I think that's why I'm such a fucking mess. She was with me last night, she swam my events on my right wrist and she pushed me so hard. ii miss her more than ever right now because intersession is so dead. i can't wait for next year's apartment. i hate the solitude.
Good news is I actually swam well last night. I got the B cut for the 1000 free with a 12:30 and change which was also my personal best. I only need to drop 5 more seconds to get the A cut in the 1000 / mile. I got my best time in the 500 for the season with a 6:11 and change. I only need to drop 11 seconds to get the A cut for that. My 100 fly wasn't bad, it was my best time from sophomore year, which was the last time I swam it. I'm doing the 400 IM tomorrow, hopefully that will be an A cut and I'll have 4 things to swim at New Englands. Distance girls took 1,2,3 sweep in the 500 and 1000, and we beat WPI by 5 points.
Today marks the 11 month anniversary of Shannon's death, I think that's why I'm such a fucking mess. She was with me last night, she swam my events on my right wrist and she pushed me so hard. ii miss her more than ever right now because intersession is so dead. i can't wait for next year's apartment. i hate the solitude.