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so i somehow go from him being absolutely amazing to me and giving me the surprise ive been waiting for and asking for to this: he broke up with me. on the day after christmas. i dont know how to deal with this. i am so fucking confused. i want him so badly but i want him to be happy but i want to be happy. i want to talk to him every minute of every day. but i want to give him his much deserved space. i want a hug and kiss but i want him to give them for the right reasons. i want to hear i love you on the other end of the telephone but then when i do i analyze it for hours afterward. i want to stop bothering him. i want to be one of those super nice people. i dont want to get so irritated at such little things. i want his help and support and patience. i want to DESERVE those things. i want to give him everything he needs and wants and deserves. i want to stop hurting. its so hard...
i love him more than anything in the world.
i cannot give up yet.
i love him more than anything in the world.
i cannot give up yet.