Cocking the Fuck With Me gun
When you watch someone lie, and manipulate... how are you supposed to know that they're not doing it to you? Just because they told you about all the times they've lied to others? School's started again... one person needed a ride. As she always does... is she my friend... or does she need me? Time hasn't seemed to be able to tell... maybe my other efforts will knock the truth out.
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School has started again. WOOPEE! All it means, is now, I won't be able to be alone. Ya think that would be a good thing... no... not really. I like being alone. Its comforting. No strange looks, no arguements, no bothering with trying to figure out people, wondering if they have alterior motives. I'm just paranoid. Lock me up, in a lonely pitch black room. See which of us comes out first. Who knows, maybe I'll make friends. Sorry Danni, car still isn't fixed... no way I was letting you or Will get in it with the shape its in... I don't want your lives on my hands. I mean, in the Lexus (my brother's car) sure... sounds good... but in my car... no... So I did the brakes... a lot of good that did. I have a front left tire that has a leak, everytime I drive over a crack it sounds like a blow out. But I'm not sure if thats the tire, or the fact that my CV Joints are on the verge of falling entirely apart. We just replaced them, about a year ago... no good appareantly. Or it could be because I know nothing about putting cars back together (only taking them apart, see: Child-hood memories, ben takes things apart, ben never figures out how they go back togehter) And that I just royally fucked up when I shoved my brakes back on... well.. the right one went on easily... the left one... my mom's boyfriend literally beat with a hammer to get it back on... I mean that seriously... he also kicked it a few times. Its hillarious that anyone would think that this is a good idea... especially when a car is about 3 feet off the ground and only being held up by some jack stands which may or may not have been placed perfectly so that you can kick the shit out of brakes while trying to put them back on. So, thats why I still haven't called, even though I think you already went back... Shit, I had the date wrong... I wonder if I actually was supposed to work today.. I know that I only work one day next week... thats bullshit. Oh well, fuck it... I could care less... I fucked up. But when don't I? I think there was this one time... But if I didn't fuck up, I'm sure it somehow inadverdantly fucked up someone else. Yeah... I'm in a neutral mood too... Oh well, who cares... I'm out until I ahve a chance to do this stuff again.
Ben
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School has started again. WOOPEE! All it means, is now, I won't be able to be alone. Ya think that would be a good thing... no... not really. I like being alone. Its comforting. No strange looks, no arguements, no bothering with trying to figure out people, wondering if they have alterior motives. I'm just paranoid. Lock me up, in a lonely pitch black room. See which of us comes out first. Who knows, maybe I'll make friends. Sorry Danni, car still isn't fixed... no way I was letting you or Will get in it with the shape its in... I don't want your lives on my hands. I mean, in the Lexus (my brother's car) sure... sounds good... but in my car... no... So I did the brakes... a lot of good that did. I have a front left tire that has a leak, everytime I drive over a crack it sounds like a blow out. But I'm not sure if thats the tire, or the fact that my CV Joints are on the verge of falling entirely apart. We just replaced them, about a year ago... no good appareantly. Or it could be because I know nothing about putting cars back together (only taking them apart, see: Child-hood memories, ben takes things apart, ben never figures out how they go back togehter) And that I just royally fucked up when I shoved my brakes back on... well.. the right one went on easily... the left one... my mom's boyfriend literally beat with a hammer to get it back on... I mean that seriously... he also kicked it a few times. Its hillarious that anyone would think that this is a good idea... especially when a car is about 3 feet off the ground and only being held up by some jack stands which may or may not have been placed perfectly so that you can kick the shit out of brakes while trying to put them back on. So, thats why I still haven't called, even though I think you already went back... Shit, I had the date wrong... I wonder if I actually was supposed to work today.. I know that I only work one day next week... thats bullshit. Oh well, fuck it... I could care less... I fucked up. But when don't I? I think there was this one time... But if I didn't fuck up, I'm sure it somehow inadverdantly fucked up someone else. Yeah... I'm in a neutral mood too... Oh well, who cares... I'm out until I ahve a chance to do this stuff again.
Ben