Life is changing again.
Amanda came over and visited me for a few minutes before she went to work, then the TV repair guy came to try to fix the big TV *again*. He couldn't figure it out, so he took the board home and promises it'll be fixed Wednesday. I left to go to class and went to Lakewood. I went to McDonalds to see Tyrel and Amie, but Amie wasn't there yet. I got my food at Burger King and then tried going to Paris's, but she wasn't there. So I went to David's house to get him. We talked for a few minutes and then went to class. Class is fucking retarded. Teaching me how to use Powerpoint... What the hell kind of idiot can't use Powerpoint?
I took David home and came home and got online and talked to him some more... And I did something that took more strength than I have. I broke up with him. Everything with David has been so weird since our last fight. I love him so much, but I the fights are terrible. I can't just forget the things that we say to eachother... People just don't say the things we say, it sucks. He probably thinks I hate him, but I don't. I never could. We're just not what we used to be... I hate it.
So I did what I do best... Hide from my feelings. I was waiting for Nadia and Jason to come get me, so I started calling people. I talked to Amanda and Kierstin for a long time. I even had a conversation with Edna Rykaczewski. Nadia finally came got me and I wanted to see my cousin so we went to PeeWee's house. I got in bed with PeeWee and started hugging him. It was nice, we just sat around bullshitting for a while. Jeremy was there too and I talked to him for a few minutes.
We went to Nadia's to return Terrie's car and soon Peelman picked us up. We got Jessica and went to Walmart. Jessica kept throwing things at people and it was kinda exciting. We eventually ended up back out at our "Hump" sign. Then we decided to see Stacy.
Jessica somehow managed to get Stacy to come out with us and we got like 40 queer beers and went back to Jessica's house. Damon and his friend Shawn were there too. I got super drunk. More drunk than EVER before. I lost my bitch shield and started crying on Nadia about David, I confessed some very bad things to Nadia, I cried on Stacy about how its my fault she's with Joe. It was bad. The memories are all coming back to me now... Jessica, Stacy and Heather went back to Stacy's to be a bunch of pot from Joe and they came back minus Heather. Nadia left a little while later. Jason passed out on the floor. Adam came over with a bowl, which was fun. Damon went to bed. I passed out in the kitchen... Shawn took me home at like 5:30, and I passed out in the living room until my mom woke me up, then I puked all over the kitchen.
I took David home and came home and got online and talked to him some more... And I did something that took more strength than I have. I broke up with him. Everything with David has been so weird since our last fight. I love him so much, but I the fights are terrible. I can't just forget the things that we say to eachother... People just don't say the things we say, it sucks. He probably thinks I hate him, but I don't. I never could. We're just not what we used to be... I hate it.
So I did what I do best... Hide from my feelings. I was waiting for Nadia and Jason to come get me, so I started calling people. I talked to Amanda and Kierstin for a long time. I even had a conversation with Edna Rykaczewski. Nadia finally came got me and I wanted to see my cousin so we went to PeeWee's house. I got in bed with PeeWee and started hugging him. It was nice, we just sat around bullshitting for a while. Jeremy was there too and I talked to him for a few minutes.
We went to Nadia's to return Terrie's car and soon Peelman picked us up. We got Jessica and went to Walmart. Jessica kept throwing things at people and it was kinda exciting. We eventually ended up back out at our "Hump" sign. Then we decided to see Stacy.
Jessica somehow managed to get Stacy to come out with us and we got like 40 queer beers and went back to Jessica's house. Damon and his friend Shawn were there too. I got super drunk. More drunk than EVER before. I lost my bitch shield and started crying on Nadia about David, I confessed some very bad things to Nadia, I cried on Stacy about how its my fault she's with Joe. It was bad. The memories are all coming back to me now... Jessica, Stacy and Heather went back to Stacy's to be a bunch of pot from Joe and they came back minus Heather. Nadia left a little while later. Jason passed out on the floor. Adam came over with a bowl, which was fun. Damon went to bed. I passed out in the kitchen... Shawn took me home at like 5:30, and I passed out in the living room until my mom woke me up, then I puked all over the kitchen.