Sometimes
Sometimes things don't work out as their expected to, sometimes everything can change in a matter of minutes. Sometimes life seems like a steady path in front of you, others it feels like you're walking on a wire. The only thing constant is change. Its hard to get used to the idea of friends being married, and friends having babies, when just a few years ago we were kids who would spend hours on the phone talking about things like Dawson's Creek. Life is sort of like a roller coaster... It has a million ups and downs, but it can only go where its rails take it.
Drama is everywhere, and it sucks. But nothing can be done about it. People just need to deal with it and not center their lives around it. Anyone can start shit, but it takes a real person just to let things go, or not let things get to them. I think thats the main difference between people in high school and people in the real world. Its easy to pick stupid fights with people and then get over them when you're in a prison-esque place that the state forces you to go, but when you're in the real world everything is up to you. I keep everything/everyone important to me, close to me. If I don't let you in, I guess you're just not important enough. Sorry. Its a dog-eat-dog world and I refuse to open myself up to anyone who I either don't trust or who's never given me reason to want to even be close to them.
I guess you're all wondering where this came from... I didn't miss Lindsey's prom on purpose. I thought the thing was THIS weekend, the weekend that Amanda just happens to be getting out of the army and needing a way home from Baltimore. Each one of my friends heard me repeatedly talk about Lindsey's prom being this week, and I guess I wrote it down wrong. It was an accident. The idea that I cancelled on her as a way of "getting at her" is as rediculous as it is stupid. And if she honestly thinks that, fuck her, I'd rather spend my time with people that aren't completely stupid. Sorry to be a bitch, but this mistake could of have avoided.. Like if we'd actually have talked in the past four-five months. I haven't seen Lindsey since Tarah's birthday party back in February, a party that Jenn and I got the hell out of before the cops busted it. Hmm... Obviously a bunch of drunk high schoolers running around a hotel room knocking on doors and being stupid in the parking lot is going to draw attention, but I digress.
Some of you guys may think I've become a bitch, but I'm there for the people that matter. The people that are there for me. I would die for my friends, and the people closest to me know that. If people want to write bitchy things back to this, don't bother. I'm not going to read them because I just don't care anymore.
Erin, Jenn, Stacy, Amanda, Shanese, Preston, Emily, Mickey, Tyrel, Eric, Eileen, Stevo, Peelman, Pez, Kathy, Annie... I love you guys.
Drama is everywhere, and it sucks. But nothing can be done about it. People just need to deal with it and not center their lives around it. Anyone can start shit, but it takes a real person just to let things go, or not let things get to them. I think thats the main difference between people in high school and people in the real world. Its easy to pick stupid fights with people and then get over them when you're in a prison-esque place that the state forces you to go, but when you're in the real world everything is up to you. I keep everything/everyone important to me, close to me. If I don't let you in, I guess you're just not important enough. Sorry. Its a dog-eat-dog world and I refuse to open myself up to anyone who I either don't trust or who's never given me reason to want to even be close to them.
I guess you're all wondering where this came from... I didn't miss Lindsey's prom on purpose. I thought the thing was THIS weekend, the weekend that Amanda just happens to be getting out of the army and needing a way home from Baltimore. Each one of my friends heard me repeatedly talk about Lindsey's prom being this week, and I guess I wrote it down wrong. It was an accident. The idea that I cancelled on her as a way of "getting at her" is as rediculous as it is stupid. And if she honestly thinks that, fuck her, I'd rather spend my time with people that aren't completely stupid. Sorry to be a bitch, but this mistake could of have avoided.. Like if we'd actually have talked in the past four-five months. I haven't seen Lindsey since Tarah's birthday party back in February, a party that Jenn and I got the hell out of before the cops busted it. Hmm... Obviously a bunch of drunk high schoolers running around a hotel room knocking on doors and being stupid in the parking lot is going to draw attention, but I digress.
Some of you guys may think I've become a bitch, but I'm there for the people that matter. The people that are there for me. I would die for my friends, and the people closest to me know that. If people want to write bitchy things back to this, don't bother. I'm not going to read them because I just don't care anymore.
Erin, Jenn, Stacy, Amanda, Shanese, Preston, Emily, Mickey, Tyrel, Eric, Eileen, Stevo, Peelman, Pez, Kathy, Annie... I love you guys.