anxiety of any kind is bad

[boytoy808]

so i'm at day off number two... and things are fine... the tech guy eventually showed up at my house to fix my internet... and so everythings working at the moment... I guess something went wrong with the authorization of my router when I went to get it swapped... everythings allright now, but things were quite interesting during this whole gap of no internet usage... being contacted from aaron yesterday really through me for a loop. he did manage to send me another message right as I was leaving the shopping center, and so I didn't get it until today... I'm surprised that aaron and melvins anniversary is the same and Melvin and mine's... talk about scary... not to mention the weirdness that melvin didn't mention that to me... in some ways I guess its not really that big of a deal... and for the most part all of this is just a build up of not being able to call him when I want to just to talk to him... its hard getting a phonecall randomly only to barely hear the one that you love.... and to have your phonecall cut short because of the lack of mins on his phonecard... grrr...

well now that I think about it... I feel as though I partially want to throw up and faint all at the same time... looks like i'm having a mild panic attack right now...

yup my hands are shaking... and great... right when I'm right about to start my class... arg!!!