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so tonight i went miature golfing with a friend...and it was so fun. for a while (like i always do) i thought C wasnt having fun...but turns out that C had a blst. C told me that it was a good idea that i planned miniature golfing cause C would have never thought of it! This thursday we're suppose to go out to LA cause C doesnt work on friday, so we can go far...lol. And then C tells me to keep friday open...the 18th of this month. I think we're gonna go to disneyland for fantasmic...casue C really likes it...lol. SOOOO CUTE!!! haha. i cant wait. i dont think ive ever been so excited about n e thing, other than going to china/hong kong with my god bros...and that says a lot. but we'll see. and then A'2 birthday is coming up, so i dont know what to get A or do with A. this is hard. i dont know what A expects from me. im still at a loss with A. But we are on break...so it is ok to see other peoople right? i hope so...but nonetheless this juggling of them two and splitting tme up to hang with both is hard.
i thought i was over this whole dating thing, but then C comes along and bam whacks me in my face! what should i do, i have more fun with C, but i have spent more time with A. do i just feel like i should hang with A just because of the times we've had? i dont know. i dont wanna break n e ones heart...cause it sucks. ive been on that end. and i dont wanna put any one in that position. life sucks...but C makes it all go away. i cant stop thinking about C. especially when we text each toher and talk about NOTHING. C lying on C's bed in the dark doing nothing and jsut texting me....or A chatting with me online, telling me that toy story 2 is on tv. wow. its so much. i am definitely overwhelmed...i like em both...but i think i like one better than the other. there goes my fucking dreams of a threesome! haha...j/k
i thought i was over this whole dating thing, but then C comes along and bam whacks me in my face! what should i do, i have more fun with C, but i have spent more time with A. do i just feel like i should hang with A just because of the times we've had? i dont know. i dont wanna break n e ones heart...cause it sucks. ive been on that end. and i dont wanna put any one in that position. life sucks...but C makes it all go away. i cant stop thinking about C. especially when we text each toher and talk about NOTHING. C lying on C's bed in the dark doing nothing and jsut texting me....or A chatting with me online, telling me that toy story 2 is on tv. wow. its so much. i am definitely overwhelmed...i like em both...but i think i like one better than the other. there goes my fucking dreams of a threesome! haha...j/k