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well today i worked my ass off all day and my mom is still acting all pissed at me for know reason. I cant stand my brother sometimes i just want him to be put on the moon so me and everyone else in my family doesn't have to deal with him. I guess i am very nieve about my family because i guess my sister has been doing drugs and i never new about it. My uncle stole 4,000 dollars from my memere. I mean i thought my uncle was the bad one in the family but to find out my sister is living with her boyfriends parents with my 2 nephews because her and her boyfriend can't keep a job or they use all there mony on drugs. :-( I wish my family was just sain and didn't have all of these problems. I am so suprised that my nephew albert is as smart as he is comeing from my sister. I think the best thing for him in a few years is to go with me for a little while during the week or the weekend so he can get away from all the drugs and stuff. What i dont understand is why my family isn't trying to talk to my sister other than letting her go out and get high all the time. The sadest thing i heard my mom say was i just hope christen doesn't start doing heroin. I feel so bad for my nephews i wish i could get them out of that place.
My uncle has found out that he has cancer and tomorrow he is going to find out how much it has spred. things seem to be going so wrong. I think my sister jenny is the sain one of the family. I was talking to her and i was telling her that felt so hurt that chris was doing drugs and that she has 2 sons and instead of spending money on them she spends in on going to mixers or drugs. Ithink things are sort of coming into view for me. I'm understanding why i am sort of messed up anyways because of what i have already had to deal with at such a young age and that what is making me so sad and depressed sometimes is mostly my family. I just wish sometimes that i could fix everything wrong that is going on in my family. I really wish i could. Well sincve it is getting warmer maybe i can have a few friends come over. Seeming as i have a huttub and a pooltable. hum hum. I hope tomorrow is a good day because i dont think i could deal with many disapointments.
I start drivers ed tuesday maybe it will be fun just maybe.:p
I have to be strong
i cant let anyone see
If i'm not strong than i am weak
I dont want to be weak
what to do
what to do
I hope things get better i really do
I dont want to louse you and you
dont you understand that your part of my family and i love you
My uncle has found out that he has cancer and tomorrow he is going to find out how much it has spred. things seem to be going so wrong. I think my sister jenny is the sain one of the family. I was talking to her and i was telling her that felt so hurt that chris was doing drugs and that she has 2 sons and instead of spending money on them she spends in on going to mixers or drugs. Ithink things are sort of coming into view for me. I'm understanding why i am sort of messed up anyways because of what i have already had to deal with at such a young age and that what is making me so sad and depressed sometimes is mostly my family. I just wish sometimes that i could fix everything wrong that is going on in my family. I really wish i could. Well sincve it is getting warmer maybe i can have a few friends come over. Seeming as i have a huttub and a pooltable. hum hum. I hope tomorrow is a good day because i dont think i could deal with many disapointments.
I start drivers ed tuesday maybe it will be fun just maybe.:p
I have to be strong
i cant let anyone see
If i'm not strong than i am weak
I dont want to be weak
what to do
what to do
I hope things get better i really do
I dont want to louse you and you
dont you understand that your part of my family and i love you