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today started of so so then i think around like 4th period things started to perck up hehe. I dont know why i'm all excited i just am i like this feeling i've had it ever since that ball left my right hand and struck 3 ppl out in a row in softball. yea i know these pple havent really plyed it before but i still did pretty well with the cercumstances. I feel sort of achieved because i got tracy out hehe i;m sorry tracy i'm just happy that i did well picking eeeeekkkkkk :-) I like pitching alot i know i'm not that great at it but hum i can dream cant i. I thalked to amie after school and i might go to movies with her phil and tara. I've never met tara before at least i dont think. HUm i hope i go i really do because i really really wantt to have some fun and get out of my house. My back is cold my brother through a snow ball at it so now my back is wet hhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooeeeeeeeeee. I dont know i hopoe this weekend is good for everybody it hope it is for me i havent seen my nieces for a while so i'm excited to see them and i will be so excited iff my nephews come with my other sister. She hates me for some reason. I guess she is punishing me for something that i never did by not letting me see my nephews. My nephews dont evenknow who i am ;*( I hope that changes when i get my license. well i have to talk to my mom to see if i can get some money from her before 5:30 6 so i can maybe go to the movies with amie. well i'm glad i'm happy even though some pple might not be. I'm sorry andy but i should be able to be happy and be with my friends sometimes. I love you kid it's just that i dont want to be around you and your friends. You say you have changed but to me it dosnt seem like it. I know you didn't go to your last 3 meetings what r me and joann going to do lock te door behind you when you go in to make sure you get something out of it. I guess joann say you using again how could you?/ How could you? This is not even cool anymore. I know i shouldn't be saying this but i wish aron was here to help you. Yea i know he is going to be ok but i was still scared a few weeks ago. I can never forgive him for what he did to me but maybe you can. If you ever give this thing up...... Your lousing weiht again because your not eating and those pills are olny supposed to be taken 1's every 8 hours not 3 every 4. andy i dont want you to ever leav em i want grow old with you as a friend. I love you kid just remember that things will get better. Rememeber all of my up's and down a m a r -------- the rest is unknow for this year but still my downs were thos pple my ups were my friends and that includes you:-)