nobody.understands.
nobody understands me what so ever i mean i try and explain to them when they ask then they go off and leave me hanging. im thinking that my little group of friends is not a group of friends to me anymore. more like im just the one who has no friends and tags along. my best friend here in arizona seems like shes hates me. she didnt talk to me all day i think shes pissed but i have no clue what for. but i guess i cant help that so i think i might switch school or start hanging out with a new group of friends i mean what else can i do. i just want to break down and cry but then i think about this wonderful boi. no not alex. someone else. he talks to me and he listens and hes nice [most of the time] and i seriously think i like this kid. no not as much as i did mark or alex but i mean pretty close. but idk hes only going to be in one of my classes soon like as in monday and he really doesnt even talk to me in that one so yeah i think this is just temporary. but it was nice to have someone to talk and flirt with and not worring about anyone else. yeah i need someone to talk to about this. but i dont have anyone because like i said my best friend is like not really there for me anymore and yeah i just dont have anyone so i guess this one isnt going to be told to anyone except mark but what can he do he lives in pennsylvania. like i know he can listen but i need a girl to talk to about it and i dont. but i guess im just going to have to deal with this all over again. its okay i have been through this before ever since kindergarten and it just strted getting better in 9th grade and now its back downhill. i just want someone to be there so i can share my thought and feelings with. i did have someone to do that with me but no now shes off doing her own thing and i can totally understand that but its kinda fucked up when one day shes all close and then the next she just ignores you i think that is fucked up but its her choice i dont even give a shit. man today put me into a really bad mood until after school when i talked to that awesome boi. i know nothing will happen between us but its nice to dream and wish that you could be like cinderella and all your dreams could come true. but im not cinderella, im going to go do my spanish project i might see you guys later