i.just.want.you.to.tell.me.you.love.me. . .
hey guys today was a same old day like everyother day of this non-living life that i maintain. i woke up and took a scolding shower and then i did my hair [which looked like crap i might add] then went to marching band and yah i wasnt really having to much there today i mean its fun but today i just wasnt in the mood for anything i guess and yah i think i am a bother to everybody now and so i just went to go get a water and went to my locker all by myslef and by the time i was done with that the bell rang so i slowly walked to 1st hour. We got our tests back and yah i got a c on it and thats more than i expected. this teacher really cant teach worth shit and i dont know how i am going to pass this class with a decent grade. but i really didnt pay attention when he was going over grades i was too busy thinking about so much shit which like i said before i really shouldnt do. but yah then after that class i went to my locker once again and i was still thinking about the boi and how i could never have him and just a bunch of shit like that and i started to walk to class and the 2 minute bell rang and then i realized i went to the fucking wrong class and the class i was suposed to be at was on the other side of campus and yah so i just said fucki it and i slowly waled to class and yah i was late but i really dont give a shit so yah that about how my day went and yah at lunch i talked to jessica and yah tyler took my belt and yah it was a sad lunch and i feel for jessica. . you know what i mean woman. . but yah it was a crappy lunch until meyer came up to me and gave me a huge hug and yah that made me really happie for 4th hour and then it all went back downhill in 5th hour because we had pictures and i lookd like crap and yah it really sucks and bah! i really wish that i didnt go to school today i mean i would have saved alot of people with the bad attitude i had all day. i am so sorry for whoever i coped an attitude with and i seriously mean it i wasnt having a good day at all and there are other reasons but i dont know if i want to go in to everyone because you guys dont need to hear about all my problems even though this is where i should belt out everything bu yah i feel ssorry for the people who read my journals because i bet your like depressed by the time your done with it or you are really annoyed and yah thats cool i guess but yah meyer is the best guy i know and yah like i said before i bet you hes reading this so yah this is really weird but you know what I DONT GIVE A SHIT! ok yah i like him and yah thats that and yah i think i should tell him right now because the last time li liked him it went all to shit because i didnt tell him and i denied liking him and yah you all know how that turned out ecspecially jess and yah well i think i am going to go now and take a shower but yah i love you lots. . .