i need your grace to remind me, to find my own
so im realizing that
i need to start to care
a little more about other
people and how they feel
than just myself.
im also realizing
what i want in my life
and what i dont. the worst
part is, i cant have part
of it. 3000 miles away.
and yes its my fault.
I know, i know.
and yah, I told yah so and
yadda yadda yadda. but that
doesnt mean i can just forget
about all this shit. it still
sucks and it still hurts.
i dont have my best friend.
i dont have my mom.
i dont have one the most amazing
people ive ever met in my life.
they arent just a phone call away.
they are a $300 dollar, 3000 mile
plane ride away. and thats worse than
almost any feeling in the world.
which is once again my fault.
maybe i should stop complaining
about the fact that my heart is
3000 miles away.
oh. just know i love you.
please.