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~drowning~ why do the tears come down everyday, in every way, of things, stupid things, i have no one to turn to no shoulder to cry on just myself thats all i can count on myself... i need someone need something to turn to i cant rely on myself its too many feelings to deal with i use to have someone to talk to who i could tell anything but their gone and i dont think their coming back things change just like people the people i know are different then when i met them some for the better some for the worse they get meaner while others get nicer but none of them i can count on no shoulder to turn to i dont know what to do with these feelings and tears feeling like im sinkin in them im drowning in my own tears....
i found that thing onlinne.. hmm.. i wish i wasnt so so so stupid!!! iv ruined something that was great!! i made my life even worse!! i took away one of the two or three things that make my life ok... and now im just sittin here thinking why the hell did i have to do it!!!! i dont kno what to do im so so mad at myself!! i said b4 that she wasnt the 1st thing on my list of stuff i couldnt live without!! i lied! shes my best best best friend and is deffinetly on the top of my list... but now.., im going to have to try and live without her cuz i did something so so stupid and lost her!! y did i do it!!! im so so so sry!! i got really really mad and blew up i dont kno how to say sry or i would have already done it!! well i guess ill go and just think my whole crappy life threw!! t2ual!! leave a comment...
i found that thing onlinne.. hmm.. i wish i wasnt so so so stupid!!! iv ruined something that was great!! i made my life even worse!! i took away one of the two or three things that make my life ok... and now im just sittin here thinking why the hell did i have to do it!!!! i dont kno what to do im so so mad at myself!! i said b4 that she wasnt the 1st thing on my list of stuff i couldnt live without!! i lied! shes my best best best friend and is deffinetly on the top of my list... but now.., im going to have to try and live without her cuz i did something so so stupid and lost her!! y did i do it!!! im so so so sry!! i got really really mad and blew up i dont kno how to say sry or i would have already done it!! well i guess ill go and just think my whole crappy life threw!! t2ual!! leave a comment...