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Oh God. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just didn't want them to worry, none of them, but it was all just too much suddenly, just everything, and now it's a great ugly blur. I shouted at her, I remember shouting, but not what, or why, and then... blank. I guess I passed out. I didn't try and hit her, did I? Oh God, tell me I didn't touch her. I'm too afraid to ask her. she keeps looking at me like I might spontaneously combust.
I don't know how to deal with this. This time I guess I really am a headcase - if I told Pomfrey or Remus or Dumbledore (and I want to, god I want to) they'd cart me off to St. Mungo's.
I miss Sirius. And Neville, Merlin, I miss Neville. I never thought about it while he was here, but he was like this constant. That was always there. And now he's not, and it's been four months and it still hurts.
I don't know why I'm writing all this. I'm weak and pathetic and I've never felt this much of a waste of space. I guess it comes from hiding behind my curtains all evening. I even did all my homework to distract me. Didn't work.
{/Private}
Anyone know where I can get a timeturner?
Never mind.
Oh God. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just didn't want them to worry, none of them, but it was all just too much suddenly, just everything, and now it's a great ugly blur. I shouted at her, I remember shouting, but not what, or why, and then... blank. I guess I passed out. I didn't try and hit her, did I? Oh God, tell me I didn't touch her. I'm too afraid to ask her. she keeps looking at me like I might spontaneously combust.
I don't know how to deal with this. This time I guess I really am a headcase - if I told Pomfrey or Remus or Dumbledore (and I want to, god I want to) they'd cart me off to St. Mungo's.
I miss Sirius. And Neville, Merlin, I miss Neville. I never thought about it while he was here, but he was like this constant. That was always there. And now he's not, and it's been four months and it still hurts.
I don't know why I'm writing all this. I'm weak and pathetic and I've never felt this much of a waste of space. I guess it comes from hiding behind my curtains all evening. I even did all my homework to distract me. Didn't work.
{/Private}
Anyone know where I can get a timeturner?
Never mind.