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I tried out my skills in walking today. I've become the lead character in an after school special. You can do it Johnny You can do it! I know you can.
They put me in the special pool that has a current, sorta like the tread mill of pools. I guess unlike regular stationary water, you can't depend on the weightlessness of the water to help you take a step. In this pool it actually required some weight or I would just get pulled off my feet. It hurts like hell, and doesn't really look like a walk I'd like to share with the world. It's crazy how quick your body forgets how to do things. Right now I have no idea how to walk.
I have to go for nerve conduction tests in a few weeks. It sounds like something that will hurt. That will decide if I need surgery or not. Hopefully not.
I'm trying to stay as happy as possible, it isn't easy. Some days I feel like a zombie and I cry myself to sleep. other days I get frustrated and yell at the people that I know are only doing their best to help me. And then there are days that are a combination of the two. Not all days are bad.
My mom is now off in Vancouver, a trip I had hoped to take with her. This probably means that my dad will fill the fridge/freezer with processed dips and frozen meat. Surely my porridge that I like for breakfast will be served with milk in it. Something tells me I won't be eating much in the next 5 days.
Some day I hope I get to go home! this feels like a camping trip, I have a backpack of random clothes that I just rewear each day. I miss my clothes, I miss my pillows, I miss my stuff.
They put me in the special pool that has a current, sorta like the tread mill of pools. I guess unlike regular stationary water, you can't depend on the weightlessness of the water to help you take a step. In this pool it actually required some weight or I would just get pulled off my feet. It hurts like hell, and doesn't really look like a walk I'd like to share with the world. It's crazy how quick your body forgets how to do things. Right now I have no idea how to walk.
I have to go for nerve conduction tests in a few weeks. It sounds like something that will hurt. That will decide if I need surgery or not. Hopefully not.
I'm trying to stay as happy as possible, it isn't easy. Some days I feel like a zombie and I cry myself to sleep. other days I get frustrated and yell at the people that I know are only doing their best to help me. And then there are days that are a combination of the two. Not all days are bad.
My mom is now off in Vancouver, a trip I had hoped to take with her. This probably means that my dad will fill the fridge/freezer with processed dips and frozen meat. Surely my porridge that I like for breakfast will be served with milk in it. Something tells me I won't be eating much in the next 5 days.
Some day I hope I get to go home! this feels like a camping trip, I have a backpack of random clothes that I just rewear each day. I miss my clothes, I miss my pillows, I miss my stuff.