"It’s hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is,
wondering if he’s okay. It’s hard to be the one who stays.
I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way.
I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I’m tired. I watch
the wind play with the trash that’s been under the snow all winter. Everything seems
simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by absence?
Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of
the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes
unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a
year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass. Through each
moment I can see infinite moments lined up, waiting.
Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"
-
Audrey Niffenegger (
The Time Traveler's Wife)
Do you wear a mask or a facade, being defensive of your true self?
Or maybe like the caterpillar,u are fearful of the outside world to emerge from your cocoon?
I am sorry, don't come tearing down my walls and fill them with colors.
For when u are gone, they walls will only serve as a reminder of you.
So for my dear gfs, while relationships are really beautiful, please be strong come what may.
Sometimes he just have to leave, so you'll find the strength to withstand the cold and bitter nights.
Sometimes he's just not ready for your heart, so he return it to you now rather than tearing it apart.
I guess no matter what his heart might feel for you, his actions prove it all; and ultimately he's setting you free.