what up
another weekend falls behind me with little more than faded strobe memories of laughter and alcohol blur. I find more and more of these in my recent past and usually they are followed by a time of saddness and self loathing. Why is it that the one who tries to destroy me the most is not my enemies but rather myself. bother, Ryan and I went to the movies the other night to see dawn of the dead ( loved it) I don't know why i like zombie movies so much maybe ist cause I kind of look like one, after that we just went home, i am so glad that he is going with me truth be told if I had to go to new orleans without him I probably would be dead right now he is so my best friend and he makes my life complete. He doesn't like some things about me though, he was gone all weekend because he hates my swollen pupils, they remind him of what he cannot any longer persue now that another has caught his eye, I love anthony too, I really feel that he has been a positive influence in ryan's life and mine. what will the future hold, who knows, june 23rd is right around the corner and columbus is too, what will be to come?? to be continued