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I keep going back and forth with a ridiculous caffeine addiction. To the point where if I don't have it at all during the day, I get headaches and I feel like I am dehydrated. And drinking a shit ton of water doesn't make it any better.
I also went from drinking maybe three sodas a week to three-five a day again. Which SUCKS because now I want to drink Dr. Pepper ALL THE TIME.
Good news though! I am on my third week of wearing my binder every day! I never thought that I would actually be able to get one, but I did and it's made things so much better for me. It's actually gotten kind of uncomfortable to wear bras in general, so I only wear sports bras to work out (which I started to ahhh). Unfortunately, because I tend to over-exaggerate my chest size when buying things, I got a size too big. It works out though, as it safely binds my chest but not in a way that makes me parents stop and ask me what I'm doing. I'm going to save up for another one (and then another) so I can have ones for different purposes!
Otherwise, it's been hard to just be happy. I try and it fails and luckily I HAVE to smile at work, and it keeps me busy. And then I go to work out and I'm so exhausted by the time that I'm done that I don't feel anything.
It's nice.
I also went from drinking maybe three sodas a week to three-five a day again. Which SUCKS because now I want to drink Dr. Pepper ALL THE TIME.
Good news though! I am on my third week of wearing my binder every day! I never thought that I would actually be able to get one, but I did and it's made things so much better for me. It's actually gotten kind of uncomfortable to wear bras in general, so I only wear sports bras to work out (which I started to ahhh). Unfortunately, because I tend to over-exaggerate my chest size when buying things, I got a size too big. It works out though, as it safely binds my chest but not in a way that makes me parents stop and ask me what I'm doing. I'm going to save up for another one (and then another) so I can have ones for different purposes!
Otherwise, it's been hard to just be happy. I try and it fails and luckily I HAVE to smile at work, and it keeps me busy. And then I go to work out and I'm so exhausted by the time that I'm done that I don't feel anything.
It's nice.