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So I am now leaving January 10, 2006 for Fort Jackson, South Carolina to begin my training for the US Army...I am happy and sad about the finality of this issue. I am excited to leave and begin to get my life rolling, but I am so sad to leave everyone...Even what I call my "family". It's especially hard to leave my other half behind. Some would say that I compose myself well and would say that they can see that I am ready to do this...If I really was would I randomly find myself crying myself to sleep? I just want to be happy, and if this is what it will take to get me to that point of satisfaction and happiness in my life, then I will do it. If this is what it'll take to come back a better person for my love, then I will do it...It really is funny, but I am finding more and more everyday that I am not doing this at all for myself. For my father, I picked the job I have (UH-60"BlackHawk" Mechanic), so now he knows I'll get training, and for my Bre, I decided to do this whole thing...Believe me everyone, if I wanted to do this I would have been gone a long time ago. If I was on my own, do you really think I would care where my life is going?...The answer is no, there is only one person who has truly saved me, literally and metaphorically, and I am totally in love that girl...I owe her everything I am now, and everything I am going to be someday. I truly hope, deep in my bones, that we can make this work, I have never wanted anything more than I want this. I love you so much Bre Baby!!! I'm trying my best with what I got. Hopefully this all works out...I love you baby. Thanks for everything!