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Gordon is actin so weird lately i mean he seems like he's tryin 2 avoid me or something and idk why. but also at the same time trying 2 avoid me he seems 2 b drawn back in to talk 2 me but it seems really acward and like he doesnt hear/care what i say or think. Idk sometimes it seems like he likes me then other times its like he wants 2 ignore me and stay as far away as possible even hto somehow he always ends up tlakin 2 me 4 at least a lil while neways and he starts the convo not me. idk what 2 do idk if i should back off and give him space or if i should like try and talk 2 him more i dont want him 2 like hate me rite before he leaves 4 pomfret i mean hes my boy he's my buddy i love hangin out w/ him and next year just isnt goin 2 b the same with out him and on top of him not being there i dont want him 2 like hate me i wanna hang out w/ him wen he has time off from skool and can hang out w/ me. OMG! friday i saw him in the hall he was sitting across from my locker and when i came 2 get shit from my locker he totally ignored me then nikki had to come in and sit next 2 him i mean she was like sittin on top of him almost i mean come on give the boy some room 2 breath. Then i went into the cafe b/c he was ignorein me so i went 2 go hang w/ some friends. Then wen i go 2 throw out a plate he comes in and colyn tells him he looked all comfy cozy w/ nikki and he told her 2 shut up then i came back and he turned and left. I cant stadn hearin nikki talk any more about "her" Gordon i mean i get it she's gonna b sad hes leavin but so am i and i cant believe shes gonna ask him 2 go 2 "our" proms. Omg and i cant stand 2 hear about how much shes goin 2 miss him and how its just now sinkin in that hes leaveing and that he cant wait 2 go. Im so confused i have 2 go i hav a big race 2morrow hopefully gordon wont act all wierd nemore.