I hope your finally understand

[boygirlboy]

I know i dont post anymore. But its a new year...why not make a new attempt. I am content in my life currently. Taking 2 courses on campus and thats cool. 2 online too. Winter break was eventuful, for once. Dusty came home. that was nice. At first he wanted me. he knew that i was with Tim, and he dealt with that well, we flirted, innocently enough. Then he met Amanda. my little sister. that was all fine and dandy, untill my mom put it into his head to go for her. and even that was fine and dandy. Untill dusty decided that because he has no chance with me, and he did like Amanda, or was attracted to her, or something (which AGAIN, i was FINE with), that he was going to TOTALLY ignore me. And of course if you know me, you know that i THREW a fit, by being MEAN to EVERYONE. and of course i know that was the wrong thing to do, but i really cant help it. thats what get when you put a chronically depressed girl into that kind of situation. i didnt know what to do with myself. i fel abandoned. and for my little sister, and i know that that isnt what my little sister wanted, but what could she do. Well..things went on, and i was accused of being jealous and such, but i got over it, and then he went home. Now i find out that his soon to be EX wife is running around with wedding pictures and such. now that pisses me off...It makes Amanda look like a mistress...and the truth of the matter is that Dusty and Heather haven't been together in like 10 months. Dusty is getting divorced...and Heather knows it.

Tim and I on the other hand, and doing wonderful. I am really enjoying spending time with him, and i do so often. I love being with him. i dont know. i mean. Its not something that i would have said 4 months ago... I am throughly happy.

i know i have more to say, but i dont really have the time to type it. I leave for work in a little bit, and i need to find my shoes.