From now on...dont talk to me.

[boygirlboy]

Do i bring it upon myself...am i supposed to be sitting alone...in a fucking camper that is supposed to be my bedroom...crying..because i am caught between a mother who is never happy with anything i do, and a boyfriend who hate being in my mothers house...Am i supposed to be screamed at on both ends...am i supposed to have no friends...because i was willing to give them all up to be with a man who yells at me...and although he has never hit me...isnt being screamed at just as bad...he has his moments...we all do...but i dont like being yelled at...and yes...i do my share of yelling too..probably moreso than he does...but he knows i am not moving to his dads/sisters house...at least here...we have a room...although it is a camper...and it is uncomfortable...its better than a floor...in a living room...

Yesterday i was talking to jordan...and there are apartments in his building...and he says they are nice...and tim and i could afford an apartment....only 3 bills...and me without a cell phone...maybe ill get my own...ha...not with my credit...

i dont know...i feel so torn...i hate fighting with tim..hate it...but yet..somehow i always manage to say the wrong thing...

and now with my sister yelling at me for not wanting to go to the library... apperently batting 1000....and i am gonna jump into a fucking hole...