I need serious help.

[boycrazit]

So this past week I've had these dreams...

...these dreams of him confessing his love and wanting me back

so i've come to the basic conclusion: i'm crazy.
but it's that why he used to love me?

if i'm not mistaken that boy loved me because i needed him.

didn't he want to be needed?
it made him feel in control...he liked that. even though he was far more messed up then me

he loved that i could give him situations where he had to be the grown up and take care of business

he can't not be in charge, doesnt he miss being the only one who knows how to take care of me?

I miss everything about him. The good and the bad. The fights and the love. The ugly lies and the pretty truths.

when we used to have these "things", these "not real" fights, everything would turn out fine in the end. because we loved each other

how come this isn't turning out fine? was the last issue our last piece of thread? does he really not love me enough to move on?

i just miss him and i miss what we do and i miss snuggling and i miss phone calls and i miss texts and i miss being wanted.

i JUST want to be wanted.

why doesnt he want me anymore?
i'll never forget what he said to me in the car that time. i wish i could erase all of it.