Realizing...
Ya know, I've thought a LOT about my ex's lately and I don't know why. It finally clicked in my head this morning when Amy was talking to Nina that Marvin is never going to be back at another level with me. All the guys that I went out with have left and for me to sit here and look back on my past and dwell on it is totally pointless for me cuz they have moved on and don't want to keep in contact anymore. I screwed up a lot of good things for me. Right now, I'm talking to someone who is a good things for me but I just get scared that I'm gonna mess it up again. We're hanging out this weekend but... I'm just so scared to get into commitment that I just back away. I really don't know what to do but I'm sure fate will lead the way. It always seems too! By the end of this summer, I think i'm gonna get a condo and start bills! If not, then definately by January! I just think it's time for me to be on my own with things. I'm definately gonna be okay tho, I know it! I have confidence in myself!
Anyways~ Life's been pleasant. Lilly's in Hawaii :( I miss her! Amy and I have been hanging out like EVERYDAY! which is definately cool! I got my tests done with but now I'm catching a cold which isnt good either! Other than that... Life's goin alright! My pains eased up and I'm just happy being alive! Spring break should be nice cuz I actually will get time to myself! I am going to prom and that's gonna be hectic! I want some1 in particular to take me cuz he's a kick ass dancer but he's gonna be out of town! :( Oh no! I dunno, I have a few to figure it out! I'll just go thru my phone book and hook it up! I definately want to be the hottest couple around, ya know? Well... I'm out... I'll update more later when I have time! Byee!
GHETTO! COME HOME SOON!
Anyways~ Life's been pleasant. Lilly's in Hawaii :( I miss her! Amy and I have been hanging out like EVERYDAY! which is definately cool! I got my tests done with but now I'm catching a cold which isnt good either! Other than that... Life's goin alright! My pains eased up and I'm just happy being alive! Spring break should be nice cuz I actually will get time to myself! I am going to prom and that's gonna be hectic! I want some1 in particular to take me cuz he's a kick ass dancer but he's gonna be out of town! :( Oh no! I dunno, I have a few to figure it out! I'll just go thru my phone book and hook it up! I definately want to be the hottest couple around, ya know? Well... I'm out... I'll update more later when I have time! Byee!
GHETTO! COME HOME SOON!