Live like u wont see tomorrow
its been one of those weeks. one u think will never end. when u think if u can just get through to the end, everything will be perfectly fine. i finally got through it. finally. seems like i went through so much pointless drama. for what? i have nothing really to show for it all. its weird how one little thing can change, well everything. we had cheerleading try outs on friday, right? well we tried out and everything. ok the list was brought out and i looked at it. and omg i wasnt on there. i have made cheerleading 3 years in a row then all the sudden i didnt? i was confused. savanna didnt make it so she was like lets just go. so we did but i had to go back in to find my mom. then mrs.cullars starts yelling at me and she's like Becky! omg u so made it. ur name was suppose to be on there. so im like totally confused and traumatized. so im like ok i made it. but i was on freakin JV. people who cant even do a toe touch or a cart wheel made varsity over me. and Linds for that matter. then i was even more confused. how can someone who cant jump OR tumble have a better score than me? i dont mean to sound cocky, but cummon. so i was crying and i told mrs.cullars i wanted to talk to her. she's like alright sweetie, so we go out in the hall and have this big long discussion. and i tell her how i feel insulted and what not. then she has the nerve to tell me that she wants me to compete with varsity. that really pissed me off. im like..if im not good enough to cheer with varsity then how am i good enough to compete with varsity?? she goes into this whole long spill about all these pointless things that just make me cry harder. i told her i didnt want to cheer for her and she told me i need to think about it before i make a final decisions because she wanted me to be captain. so i went and talked to my mom and decided just to go ahead and pay my money and stuff. so we left and i was still extremely upset. i went to lindsey's house and we talked. we both concluded that we would not be happy with mrs.cullars, or being classified on the same skill level as people who cant even do their jumps. thats very very insulting. so linds called mrs. cullars and told her. mrs.cullars got an attitude and hung up on linds. then she calls back and says "well u guys should know that if u quit now u cant ever try out again...Ever." but as weird as it seems, we didnt care. i have no desire what-so-ever to cheer for that lady. she wants to compete and go to Nationals. NATIONALS...does she not realize that u need to be able to tumble and have some sense of skill to make it all the way to nationals? judging should be on skill not favoritism. i guess after all this i just kinda realized that things Do change when u get in high school. i love cheering, im not going to stop just because of an unfair bias decision. i just know that if i was on JV i wouldnt be pushing myself to better myself. i mean think about it... Linds and i are good enough to be on a competition All-Star squad but we're not good enough to be on Madison County's varsity squad that hasnt won a competition recently enough to even remember? i just dont even know what to think or say about that. i'll never cheer for the school again. and honestly i'll probly never have to desire to. its kinda sad. im sure All-Stars will be just as much, if not more, fun. im ready to move on and try something new. atleast i know i'll be gaining more out of all-stars. hopefully this is the last bitchy post for a while. ha. i Will have happy things to say next time. hope u had a nice week. XoXo