im here without u..but ur still on my lonely mind
today is thursday. friday is finally almost here. omg that makes me so happy. i think i like forgot how to type because i've sucked horribly bad at it for about the last 2 days. it kinda scares me. linds and i got into an arguement last night. a bad one. but we are alright now. sometimes i just feel really confused about, well, everything. its like..i know how i feel but i dont know if i should feel that way or not and i dont know how to explain it. paige and i talked a lot today. we're getting closer. that makes me happy. i kinda feel like she's reaching out to me more now just because her other friends kinda have been doin some not friend-like things. but thats alright. she needs someone right now and i am more than willing to be that someone. i made a 94 and a 93 on my tests in ms.clark's class. it was great. i actually did my homework for math. i felt good about that. lunch was prety boring. but it usually is. i saw blake and i just wanted to hit him...er..do something of that sort. sometimes just the mere thought of him makes me mad. im not sure why. i dont want him and lindsey to be "together". i get the feeling that lindsey leads him on but doesnt realize it. i just wish he would get over himself. chad came to the gym after school again. i love that. it makes me feel so good that he would go that much out of his way, for me. but i was talking to linds and she was telling me about when they were at the Stars game and he wanted to leave because Kim called him. that gave me a really funny feeling. i dont want him to want to start talkin to me again just because the person he likes told him she's too old for him. no one wants to be someone's second choice. makes me feel uneasy. i think i just need a break from guys. all the drama that comes with them, all the useless nonesense. im just ready for summer. im ready for the rush when the bell rings in last period, and ur free. next year will be better. i hope it will be atleast. this year wasnt horrible, but it could have been much better. sometimes living in sucha small place gets frustrating. but no matter where u run to...there will be problems and drama and people u u dont want to be around. im gonna go take a nap. hope u had a nice day! <3