A memory......
umm. i've been feeling bad. for 3 days now. like dieing. not because what happend. but, because i feel someones not in love with me anymore. at all. maybe they find me disgusting. i don't know. that person used to make me feel like i was the greatest ever, lately that person's been making me feel like shit. the person keeps taking it out on themself. and.. i think think's that person isn't good enough. or something. but that person's everything to me. i don't want to lose that person. i miss that person hugging me back. i miss that person abusing the sentence, "i love you". i miss that person kissing me every half second. i miss that person and me having stupid arguements on who loves who more. i miss having that person feel happy for having me. i feel like this is my fault. i don't know why. i don't even know what i did wrong. i have no problem with who that person is. but. obviously. they do. and it's not about me. as they say it is. i just want things to go back to normal. i want it too. but they're not letting it. i want that person in my arms. and giggle. and laugh. i feel that person's pain. i feel pain right now. i'm not sure if that person feels it. but. whatever. i feel pain, i feel hurt. the thing that makes me mad is that i've been trying to resolve things. and that person doesn't help. does that person want it to be better? or not. anyways, that person means the world to me and so much more. i would kill people for that person. risk my life for that person. but, when this person hurts me like this. and hurts the very own feelings the person has for itself. i want to be with you forever, i don't want to end it now because i feel we have so much more to still do.