just realized that other people's lives move on without me...
i want something crazy and drastic to happen in my life so that i can fill people in later with indifference that i try to hard at and they know that i'm not nonchalant. that it really did effect me deeply, but, i'm doing an alright job of pretending that it didn't. so that they feel for me but don't hate me for hamming it up.
i haven't really completed a chapter since my last chapter...
i feel displaced.
i need to move away.
i need for things to happen.
i feel myself aging.
i am getting closer to being too old... too old for... for THINGS!
every day is an other day that i didn't use like i should have.
damn.
this line of thinking is making me feel shitty.
like i want to change things up.
i am the fly in the ointment.
the spanner in the works.
the x-factor.
i haven't really completed a chapter since my last chapter...
i feel displaced.
i need to move away.
i need for things to happen.
i feel myself aging.
i am getting closer to being too old... too old for... for THINGS!
every day is an other day that i didn't use like i should have.
damn.
this line of thinking is making me feel shitty.
like i want to change things up.
i am the fly in the ointment.
the spanner in the works.
the x-factor.