Cats, Hairy Guys and Stupid Bureaucrats
I noticed that I use this place to ventilate, when I feel that I need to express without somebody telling me their opinion. I need to speak my mind, to keep it here for the record. Sometimes I think that we all do the same, we are here just to express ourselves, maybe we have an opinion from someone far away, maybe not. Sometimes we just want to capture moments in our lives, just like a photograph.
Well, today I don't feel too good, even if good things have happened to me lately, they seem to be there to make me only half happy.
I finally found a job in a design studio, with a great ambiance and with very good potential, BUT it is a part-time job, I still need to find more work to pay bills and debts.
I found someone that I like a lot, he is really handsome, he seems to like me a lot too, he is very caring and can be tender while being masculine (something that I like a lot) we have a very good time togheter, BUT he is married to another man ( I mean legally married), they are in an open relationship, but he has duties at home, and can only see me part-time, what kind of future can I have there?
As posted before I've lost my cat two weeks ago, then I decided not to get another cat, and there he comes and gives me a kitten; I've got mixed feelings about it, and I am thinking about returning the kitty, I am not ready for it and not sure I want another cat, period.
Following the suggestion of an agent of Emploi-Quebec, I've been meeting a carrer advisor since November, the mandate was to find a complementary training payed from the gouvernment for me, to improve my job perspectives. Me and the career advisor have been working on this for about four months, but the agent from the gouvernment had changed her mind two times, and we've gone from a 1 year training program to a few weeks, and then to a 6-9 month period. I meet with the agent last week, just to find a rude attitude. She asked me what I was doing there, and why I worked all this time on getting a training program, when the gouverment can not give it to me. Then she asked what was the next step, I flipped out ! still remain calm and told her that this is the first time I do this, and that she knows better what to do next, that she offered me the training and that was the reason why me and the carreer advisor were looking for it. I also told the agent that since she has been in contact with the career advisor, then she should have clarified that a long time ago. At the end I just stared at her and answered with yes or no to her stupid rants, then left with an idea on my mind: They can not do anything for me and I will not be back. Fuck all that!
I need to stand up to my feelings and what I want to do with my life. And again I am going to do it alone.
Well, today I don't feel too good, even if good things have happened to me lately, they seem to be there to make me only half happy.
I finally found a job in a design studio, with a great ambiance and with very good potential, BUT it is a part-time job, I still need to find more work to pay bills and debts.
I found someone that I like a lot, he is really handsome, he seems to like me a lot too, he is very caring and can be tender while being masculine (something that I like a lot) we have a very good time togheter, BUT he is married to another man ( I mean legally married), they are in an open relationship, but he has duties at home, and can only see me part-time, what kind of future can I have there?
As posted before I've lost my cat two weeks ago, then I decided not to get another cat, and there he comes and gives me a kitten; I've got mixed feelings about it, and I am thinking about returning the kitty, I am not ready for it and not sure I want another cat, period.
Following the suggestion of an agent of Emploi-Quebec, I've been meeting a carrer advisor since November, the mandate was to find a complementary training payed from the gouvernment for me, to improve my job perspectives. Me and the career advisor have been working on this for about four months, but the agent from the gouvernment had changed her mind two times, and we've gone from a 1 year training program to a few weeks, and then to a 6-9 month period. I meet with the agent last week, just to find a rude attitude. She asked me what I was doing there, and why I worked all this time on getting a training program, when the gouverment can not give it to me. Then she asked what was the next step, I flipped out ! still remain calm and told her that this is the first time I do this, and that she knows better what to do next, that she offered me the training and that was the reason why me and the carreer advisor were looking for it. I also told the agent that since she has been in contact with the career advisor, then she should have clarified that a long time ago. At the end I just stared at her and answered with yes or no to her stupid rants, then left with an idea on my mind: They can not do anything for me and I will not be back. Fuck all that!
I need to stand up to my feelings and what I want to do with my life. And again I am going to do it alone.