[Voice]
[Private, 50% Hackable]
I have given up most hope of going home. Come May I'll have been here for two years and in that time...
Well, even if I make it back, I doubt my own mother would recognize me.
I'm also not entirely sure if I want to go back either. I miss my mother, my aunt and my grandfather at home. Truly I do. And I have a responsibility to become the head of the family; a duty I chose of my own free will, something I had wanted for so long.
Yet here I have a freedom I had never expected I'd ever want. I have met so many people, and for the first time I have made friends and felt a sense of belonging. Even in the home I love so much in Aoyama, I have always felt a sense of isolation; I have never fit in with others. I will never fit in with others. I had resigned myself to that. It's different here.
I know I can't have both, and there will come a point in my life where I may have to decide if the scientists don't make the decision for me.
Should that time come, I'll have regrets either way; as it always is.
[/Private]
The flurries are pleasant to watch now that the commotion has died down. Discedo blanketed in white seems somehow less hostile than when it's not. I know this is not truly the case but still, it is lovely.
I feel myself eagerly awaiting the arrival of spring. Perhaps this year we'll see some growth in plant life.
I have given up most hope of going home. Come May I'll have been here for two years and in that time...
Well, even if I make it back, I doubt my own mother would recognize me.
I'm also not entirely sure if I want to go back either. I miss my mother, my aunt and my grandfather at home. Truly I do. And I have a responsibility to become the head of the family; a duty I chose of my own free will, something I had wanted for so long.
Yet here I have a freedom I had never expected I'd ever want. I have met so many people, and for the first time I have made friends and felt a sense of belonging. Even in the home I love so much in Aoyama, I have always felt a sense of isolation; I have never fit in with others. I will never fit in with others. I had resigned myself to that. It's different here.
I know I can't have both, and there will come a point in my life where I may have to decide if the scientists don't make the decision for me.
Should that time come, I'll have regrets either way; as it always is.
[/Private]
The flurries are pleasant to watch now that the commotion has died down. Discedo blanketed in white seems somehow less hostile than when it's not. I know this is not truly the case but still, it is lovely.
I feel myself eagerly awaiting the arrival of spring. Perhaps this year we'll see some growth in plant life.