The Cheese Stands Alone!
my favorite line from sex and the city is the episode where they are talking about their masturbation fantasies and Miranda is the only one who thinks of a mexican bus boy and everyone gets silent and she says something to the extent of...."Fine, the cheese stands alone" everything I do i feel that way, I can be around a group full of people and be having HUGE conversations with myself in my head because no one would get what I was saying if I started talking out loud. BECAUSE, god forbid a conversation taking place with out the subject matter of boys and crabs and sex and "what do you do?" aka am I gonna talk to you or rather, sleep with you, because you make or have a lot of money, or who's the "cutest" and who's the sluttiest, and who can drink the most, god there must be more to life than this!?!?!.....and god forbid the goal of a night with friends, being about the friends and building stronger relationships with them, what happened to that? just a little venting
I just spent the first weekend off, I have had since November, in a college town full of people furthering their education with absolutely no brains. Now, I know that is a harsh generalization and I know not everyone there is dull and uninteresting, but I just didn't run into any of them, except Heather! A totally unexplainable treasure! I felt like I was in Indiana and everything I hated about it was right there and I was stuck. It's a depressing and quite possibly the most terrifying thing to me.(going back to Indiana) i kept thinking of my little sisters and how I pray they don't grow up like that. The great thing about the weekend was that I got to see two of my friends and I got the pleasure of knowing that I got to come back to LA, quite possibly, to me, the greatest place on earth and I feel so blessed to have had the balls to drop outta college and leave what made me unhappy and that I have it great here, because I am steering my life and I can go any where I want.:) chew on that! i do need to be less pessimistic and more open, and i will be workin' on it!
I just spent the first weekend off, I have had since November, in a college town full of people furthering their education with absolutely no brains. Now, I know that is a harsh generalization and I know not everyone there is dull and uninteresting, but I just didn't run into any of them, except Heather! A totally unexplainable treasure! I felt like I was in Indiana and everything I hated about it was right there and I was stuck. It's a depressing and quite possibly the most terrifying thing to me.(going back to Indiana) i kept thinking of my little sisters and how I pray they don't grow up like that. The great thing about the weekend was that I got to see two of my friends and I got the pleasure of knowing that I got to come back to LA, quite possibly, to me, the greatest place on earth and I feel so blessed to have had the balls to drop outta college and leave what made me unhappy and that I have it great here, because I am steering my life and I can go any where I want.:) chew on that! i do need to be less pessimistic and more open, and i will be workin' on it!