dude.

[boxpandora]

so, i just had my basics of interior design class. apparently i was supposed to have drafting as a prerequisite, but i didn't make my schedule.

i had a little bit of a panic attack...when the prof handed out the syllabus and i realized that i will already be 'designing' by the end of the quarter. and the prof was calling us designers...which i am now? by the end of the quarter i will be doing a full scale presentation, complete with a floor plan and everything. which, clearly, is what i'm going to school to learn but i felt like i would have more time to ease into it or something. and this is why i am going to school, to become a freaking designer..but it's just a little scary having fantasized about doing something for years and then all of a sudden having the tools in your hands. i don't know why i felt like this was so impossible. it feels absolutely surreal. i'll get used to it soon, i'm sure, by next quarter i will feel like a pro.

once again, all quite trite, but it's how i'm feeling, damnit.

i also have been having belly problems for weeks now and i am thinking about going on a crazy cleansing fast.