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I was recently browsing through PiperBabble (Hamline-related website thing), noticing the rental opportunities for apartments and houses / people selling their cars and suddenly I wish I was older, had more money, was more independent, more responsible, and more financially able to make such huge [financial] decisions. I would love to have my own place. I would love to have my own car. I would love to have my own... everything. These thoughts are weird (new) to me. I want to have my own washer and dryer, spend Sundays reading the paper with a cup of coffee and a basket of clean laundry at my side that needs folding. I want so much to live independently, yet I know it's unrealistic and not financially possible.
Perhaps I'm having these thoughts the more I live at home -- or because my friends are already arranging for their own apartments next year. It's beginning to make me realize how much more I love it at the dorms because I feel so much more independent. There, I totally depend on myself in terms of food (buying groceries, for instance) and laundry and what I do and where I go. I'm cooking my own meals and doing my own laundry in an atmosphere that reminds me every day that I am no at longer home, where I simply exist.
Just some 5:30-6AM things on my mind... I thought I'd write them down. I guess I wonder if anyone's in the same boat sometimes.
Perhaps I'm having these thoughts the more I live at home -- or because my friends are already arranging for their own apartments next year. It's beginning to make me realize how much more I love it at the dorms because I feel so much more independent. There, I totally depend on myself in terms of food (buying groceries, for instance) and laundry and what I do and where I go. I'm cooking my own meals and doing my own laundry in an atmosphere that reminds me every day that I am no at longer home, where I simply exist.
Just some 5:30-6AM things on my mind... I thought I'd write them down. I guess I wonder if anyone's in the same boat sometimes.