Jul 09, 2006 03:26
I would like to take this journal space to extend an apology to anyone I've ever let down at any time. My friendships are all extremely important to me...perhaps even think they're more important than they should be, because I constantly find myself trying to please friends before myself or even my family. It's a tragic flaw I've had for quite some time now. I've never wanted to put myself first because I felt like if I ever did anything for myself it would be selfish (which, astonishingly, is obviously legit...self/selfish kind of coincide with one another)...but through my tragic flaw, I've learned that the more effort I put into making everyone happy, it seems I end up letting more people down in the long run, and then I feel the need to punish myself because I must have been doing something selfish if I forgot to call someone or neglected to pay enough attention to someone or whatever the fuck else I've done to be a crappy friend. Maybe one day I'll do something right. In any case...to all the friends I've ever let down: I'm sorry...I hope thats enough...it's probably not, but I'm willing to accept that.
Wow, that was a trippy journey into the inner workings of the depressing side of my mind...lets hope we all never have to go there again...it sounds way too emo..."Ugh, When the hair swept in front of my eyes isn't hiding me from the ugliness and pain of the world, I love to look at the stars...the stars come out when it's dark...dark like my soul." wah wah wah blah blah blah
On a slightly happier note: Pirates 2 was entertaining...I wasn't bored at all...it had some quirks, but it kept me interested nonetheless...that, and I was dressed like a pirate, along with several other scallywags, so that probably made it more enjoyable. YARRG!
Everythings gonna be ok...right?
Theres a rapist in the centerville school parking lot...kind of...hah.