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Heart broken again .. owell..life moves on .. i dont know why i even need a cellphone.. i give my phone number out . and like no one calls.. HAHAh .. waste of my time.. i guess..FUCK IT ALL TO HELL.. even people. . i got outta the house today .. oh man it was hot .lately ive been losing a lot oof weight cause i havent been eating a lot. im afraid i might be loosing too much weight .. owell like nobody to impress might as well please my dad cause he seems to not shut up about my weight .. maybe ill die OHH SOO COOOL then hell relize i was perfect before .. naww.. to many people to invite to my funeral.. I said she might me ignoring me or dose not have hher phone. my friend said something else that made me think .. ohhhh what a trajedy .. yeah ..to tell you the truth i dont know what im doing with the rest of my life..i dont want to think that far ahead .. so dont plan on asking me . cause im just gonna give the worrld the finger..this is probably the emoest thing ive ever written. WHy the Fuck do i care .. i really dont ..Boo Hoo build a bridge get over it .. i should really start reading my old writtings to see how lame i was when i started this shit. I cant believe i fell for her .. i even told myself not to ..cause she lives so far and she has such a busy schedule..I found my journal.. it was missing for a while.. i wrote 6 pages on her.. i dont know why ..she just seemed so intresting to write about .. but then i relize that..my thoughts were right about her, i dont get why i didnt think of that sooner so i wouldnt be so in love with her ,, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!! i guess ill live life by the day and see where it takes me .. this is soooooo stupid ..i dont get anyfeed back.. probably cause none of this shit makes any sense ..what ever ..