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my heart is breaking into a million pieces and my world is slowly crashing down all around me...i realize that this is all my fault, but its not like i meant for it to happen, how can they give up and shut it out so quickly? is it really that easy? god, why him? why now? i honestly think that its impossible for me to love and be loved...no matter what, i fuck it up...thank god for my cousin...i'll just live with her for the rest of my life lol fuck guys! it shouldnt hurt this much, im the one that did this, how did i let this happen? i just want to know one thing though..why the lies? he was happy with me...now all of a sudden hes saying that he wasnt? even i know that i had been happy, the love just seemed to fade, maybe it was the distance, maybe if i had gone to school closer to home, things would be okay...but i know he was happy, he cant lie, its all a lie...maybe everything is a lie, maybe im a lie...just one big fucking lie...