Life.
Let me see I have not wrote in here in a long time. I Don't know whats going on man no one ever told me growing up was going to be so fucking hard if i had the choice i might have not choose to do it damnit. I sat here and read old entrys and relized i dont know what the fuck im doing anymore. I see certain people and i am like i fucking hate them. But i read this with all my old comments and feelings and it almost makes me miss the times we have had. I have forgoten whats its like to have really good friends. Dont get me wrong i love the people i hang out with but it will never be like the old ones i have a different type of friends i guess now. I use to be close to Teisha but shit has changed I didn't even know that her kid could walk . We all make choices everyday but some people make chooses that make me wanna slap them becuase they are fucking up what could be a great thing. I relize now i jumped on the fuck it up bandwagon a while back . Sure im going to school now and im getting atleast a 3.0 grade average which is damn good for me but the truth is i dont know why the fuck im going or why i do what i do. I remember how determinded i use to be and how people use to ask me for advice and i use to blow peoples mind by the determination i had to not do certain things and now look I became my worst fear . Damnit.... I do all kinds of shit i use to Bitch at my old friends for like i dont have a care in th world I dont know i Picked up went to cleveland with no notice a while ago and last weekend me and Rob Went to Minnesota i need to get my shit together and start making sense i think. I am just all over the place i never come home on time i never talk to anyone in my family i just do what i want part of me thinks that its part of growing up but the other part thinks i have some pretty sick parents i should talk while i still can. I dont know im just blabing bout fucked up shit I might go to chicago later i went to missouri the other night twice in one day im really different i dont know what im going to do i wish i had the money to get the fuck out of here though. before it all catches up with me . I had a friend once he told me everthing happens for a reason and no matter what i choose someone else has already choosen for me im just playing it out. I have been thinking about that its creepy because i dont even know what to do let alone why someone else would pick for me to do this weird shit. Im just confused i want out of here before certain things happen and ihave no where to run too.