Im So L0sT...
"Heart Before Harm"
in the first word you spoke i was hit with a jolt
thunderstruck in the heart with a lightning bolt
it bled the lies pure white like insanity
spit the truth back now prove to me
with raw hands and blind eyes dipped in black
as my world melted and the dark came back
emerged underground with betrayal as a guide
a promise of vengance all conceived in mind
dont speak too loud ill hear i will
you've scarred with your ignorance now its time to kill
examine my deepest thoughts to see chains they contain
wipe away the dust and rust off my brain
when hate and rage and fear combines
im blown away by the blazes in the darkest times
ive lived your world and im now sick
plagueing me like the devil's advocate
you make me wish for an easy way out like cancer
alone and cold as it eats away faster
in the night light it waits the shadow creeps
im coming its in the shadow where i sleep
below the surface ive no air left but im alive
in the cold tossed aside like something ominous
a sickness of curses like im wasting away
haste the day verses predict the pain
eternal deception full of crimson sores
im an oracle and its revenge i swore
military perception now an elegant artform
Alone being scorned hope being torn
in this form in the dark im reborn
try to maintain my anger calmly
the hatelord of my one man army
Its been a long while since ive written something meaningfull.
Me and Amanda are no more...
its sad really cause..and i wish that there was some way to turn back time...but i guess in order for me to become a better person i guess it has to be like this..but the real question is...do we stll have a future...how can i believe that she still wants to marry me...how can i? im alone now and that is so upsetting...but she still loves me she says it not so much but its there...god its making me sad...but it has been a terrible 3 months without you amanda... i have to stop before i get all sorts of sad again...because i still cant talk about it much...everytime i look at you and your not with me...it hurts alot...ive been through more than any normal person would go through and still love someone...i just hope that me loving her wont change...and her loving me well you get the idea..
good bye lj lol ill write soon i hope...
K. moT
in the first word you spoke i was hit with a jolt
thunderstruck in the heart with a lightning bolt
it bled the lies pure white like insanity
spit the truth back now prove to me
with raw hands and blind eyes dipped in black
as my world melted and the dark came back
emerged underground with betrayal as a guide
a promise of vengance all conceived in mind
dont speak too loud ill hear i will
you've scarred with your ignorance now its time to kill
examine my deepest thoughts to see chains they contain
wipe away the dust and rust off my brain
when hate and rage and fear combines
im blown away by the blazes in the darkest times
ive lived your world and im now sick
plagueing me like the devil's advocate
you make me wish for an easy way out like cancer
alone and cold as it eats away faster
in the night light it waits the shadow creeps
im coming its in the shadow where i sleep
below the surface ive no air left but im alive
in the cold tossed aside like something ominous
a sickness of curses like im wasting away
haste the day verses predict the pain
eternal deception full of crimson sores
im an oracle and its revenge i swore
military perception now an elegant artform
Alone being scorned hope being torn
in this form in the dark im reborn
try to maintain my anger calmly
the hatelord of my one man army
Its been a long while since ive written something meaningfull.
Me and Amanda are no more...
its sad really cause..and i wish that there was some way to turn back time...but i guess in order for me to become a better person i guess it has to be like this..but the real question is...do we stll have a future...how can i believe that she still wants to marry me...how can i? im alone now and that is so upsetting...but she still loves me she says it not so much but its there...god its making me sad...but it has been a terrible 3 months without you amanda... i have to stop before i get all sorts of sad again...because i still cant talk about it much...everytime i look at you and your not with me...it hurts alot...ive been through more than any normal person would go through and still love someone...i just hope that me loving her wont change...and her loving me well you get the idea..
good bye lj lol ill write soon i hope...
K. moT