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So i been meaning to update this for a while the only time i want to though is when im feeling shitty. I had a jam session with manges and mike yesterday, that went very well, but its just for us..record something someday. and then we had a get together with all the 'boys', smoked pot and drank whisky which made me melancholy. i feel like idealism is bleeding out of me, and my friends. You have these fleeting feelings with your ideals and you see it get crushed on a daily basis. I am so sick of society, i see it everyday, and me just complaining about it isnt helping any. So i just cowardly drown myself in books and thoughts. I just cant get a kick out of everything, i dont even know how to explain myself but just saying i have "weird" thoughts.
I been hanging out with my girl a lot, its a learning experience for me, like anything else. We have a lot in common but then we are complete opposites. shes quite good at playing society for her advantage whereas im stubborn with my idealogly, she has ideals, fleeting thoughts...but shes a lot more draconian in her ways, very disciplined, and her independent and womanly personality is very intimidating. Its striking how her personality changes into a docile girl when shes in my arms though....I love her, but lastnight she came over, and i couldnt grasp her jokes because my mind was somewhere else...i hope i dont take this for granted and lose it like i often do.
Im also going to quit my job very soon. They seem to have no qualms about firing people out of whim recently, theres a big story, but my friend Alisha got fired for stupid reasons and it really pisses me off. her personality just didnt comply with everyone elses. thats why it happened. its sickening. fodder gets replaced easily. and people arent enlightened they just want to subjagate and be subjagated.
I been hanging out with my girl a lot, its a learning experience for me, like anything else. We have a lot in common but then we are complete opposites. shes quite good at playing society for her advantage whereas im stubborn with my idealogly, she has ideals, fleeting thoughts...but shes a lot more draconian in her ways, very disciplined, and her independent and womanly personality is very intimidating. Its striking how her personality changes into a docile girl when shes in my arms though....I love her, but lastnight she came over, and i couldnt grasp her jokes because my mind was somewhere else...i hope i dont take this for granted and lose it like i often do.
Im also going to quit my job very soon. They seem to have no qualms about firing people out of whim recently, theres a big story, but my friend Alisha got fired for stupid reasons and it really pisses me off. her personality just didnt comply with everyone elses. thats why it happened. its sickening. fodder gets replaced easily. and people arent enlightened they just want to subjagate and be subjagated.