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I can't keep up with this shit. I just cant get anything to work right. everyone is looking to me for the answers i can't provide and it's making me feel worthless. I am worthless, i can't even do my job properly. 2 cabinets down?! I've always thought i was better than this, but there is nothing i can do. I've tried everything i can possibly think of and it's just fucking killing me that i can't get this right. My hands shake, i throw shit, i punch shit, I feel like a 5 year old that just wants to throw a fucking fit. I just feel so helpless. I want to see these jobs through, but how!? nothing i can think of works. the past few days have been 18 hour workdays, straight fucking through. 6 days of this crap. I am so depressed. Doing a good job to hide it, huh?