and i feel all this pain, stuffed it down, it's back again...
and i lie, here in bed... all alone
It's just crazy how quickly you can go from feeling awesome, to brought down to the bottom. Seems to happen when i'm either overworked or bored out of my mind.
It's whatever though.
even though i've come so far, i've got so far to go.
I hate being out here, immensely. this about the time last deployment i really started suspecting something was amis at home. Just when for no reason you feel like everything is going to shit, you have nothing to turn to. nothing, and that might be one of the things that sucks the most. your all alone.
"I beleive this is killing me", as the smile ran away from his face
Yes, i am pretty varied in my music selection right now, but they're all centered on people who just are far from happy... easy to deal with a fucked up head when you fool yourself into thinking your not alone.
they're sharing a drink called lonliness, but it's better than drinking alone
Is this something i could do forever? doubt it. Call me week or needy, it doesn't matter. most people have their opinions of me already. There are times, everyone needs to be alone, but this isn't one of them. It's just what i have to deal with i suppose.
43 days left... it's not going to be as easy as it sounds, not for me anyways.
It's just crazy how quickly you can go from feeling awesome, to brought down to the bottom. Seems to happen when i'm either overworked or bored out of my mind.
It's whatever though.
even though i've come so far, i've got so far to go.
I hate being out here, immensely. this about the time last deployment i really started suspecting something was amis at home. Just when for no reason you feel like everything is going to shit, you have nothing to turn to. nothing, and that might be one of the things that sucks the most. your all alone.
"I beleive this is killing me", as the smile ran away from his face
Yes, i am pretty varied in my music selection right now, but they're all centered on people who just are far from happy... easy to deal with a fucked up head when you fool yourself into thinking your not alone.
they're sharing a drink called lonliness, but it's better than drinking alone
Is this something i could do forever? doubt it. Call me week or needy, it doesn't matter. most people have their opinions of me already. There are times, everyone needs to be alone, but this isn't one of them. It's just what i have to deal with i suppose.
43 days left... it's not going to be as easy as it sounds, not for me anyways.