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I am afraid of everything it is really quite annoying. My current most prominent fear is my failure to write exactly what I have in my head, and that I am talentless, and that I will never be a great writer. I am so scared. scared.scared.scared.
My writing is vague, and is not in the form of most poetry. Writing my book is pointless, I wish I could blame my adhd but I can't get out what I really and truly want! It is SOOOO incredibly frustrating. jfklsdafjslksfjlkYIKESSS.
Brain to paper I can not transfer.
The beauty escapes from my shaking hand
So weak from the rapid thoughts that are
Coming and going as the leaves fall from the trees;
Trying, trying so hard to captivate
The lucid, distinct pictures my thoughts draw.
Only I can see the whole picture
While all of you see fragments of dull colors.
Fault is mine.
Fault is all mine.
anywhooooo the book I am reading is ridiculously good. I just started and I love it. It's hard for me to read these days but I try at night, and I am happy I read tonight. I was inspired. I lost my groove so now I'm just listenin to some music waiting for my body to shut down. I am waiting to see how things unfold me for me soon. New job, russell back, some friends. I am kind of just floating by right now. I am so ready for my birthday. No more teen. finally.
My writing is vague, and is not in the form of most poetry. Writing my book is pointless, I wish I could blame my adhd but I can't get out what I really and truly want! It is SOOOO incredibly frustrating. jfklsdafjslksfjlkYIKESSS.
Brain to paper I can not transfer.
The beauty escapes from my shaking hand
So weak from the rapid thoughts that are
Coming and going as the leaves fall from the trees;
Trying, trying so hard to captivate
The lucid, distinct pictures my thoughts draw.
Only I can see the whole picture
While all of you see fragments of dull colors.
Fault is mine.
Fault is all mine.
anywhooooo the book I am reading is ridiculously good. I just started and I love it. It's hard for me to read these days but I try at night, and I am happy I read tonight. I was inspired. I lost my groove so now I'm just listenin to some music waiting for my body to shut down. I am waiting to see how things unfold me for me soon. New job, russell back, some friends. I am kind of just floating by right now. I am so ready for my birthday. No more teen. finally.